♥mixue

2012-01-16T13:38:00.001+08:00

16 days after NewYear,

Last year today we were in JAPAN ready to be back home!

Year 2011, started with a BANG! having countdown in NYC,

and 3 weeks of tour between NYC and TOKYO.

Had my first Xmas with him in 2011 as well.

Counted down in our room this year, to our 2 years anniversary.

Got proposed under a mistletoe, with a very cute blinking pooh ring! HAHA.

MY FAVORITE PEOPLE OF 2011 & MANY MORE TO COME!

She's expecting again! Another god child for me:)

* miss you, its been 6 almost 7 years*

<3 My mummy and Love, thank you for being so

understanding and always being there for me.

Thank you grandpa for staying alive and always making me laugh whenever I see you :)

Thank you daddy for all that you have gave although you are quite a pain sometimes :p

PEARL JIE, this year you are a NAUGHTY girl, but still I LOVE YOU.

and as promised I will always be here, and listen to whatever you need to pour out with.

Though you are stubborn at times, but I am glad most of the times, you heeded my advice.

I love you and may you be filled with love and happiness and no more worthless tears to be shed.

Thank You Twinnie, for always being there no matter where or when.

Even when we are like far away from each other, you being in UK and me here,

The difference of 7 hours, thank you for being the nicest sweetest and most patient

advisor,business partner and girlfriend. Cant wait for you to be back!

Finally Stephgf has a BOYFRIEND,though we met only three to four times in 2011.

But it was good enough for much catch up and much love to be shared.

To my dearest JOJO and JUJU, the true love , pure tender loving care of a friendship through these years,

were given to me by you two, always looking out and encouraging and motivating me no matter what I do.

2011 we break record! we met 4 times instead of just 3, this year more okays!

Hugs my dearest workaholics.

*Newest addition to the favourite list*

LIM HAI PING!

Thank you babe for being so nice and patient with me,

helping me during my flea markets and accompanying me when I'm lonely.

:) thank you for intro-ing me jobs, and telling me alot of DA DAO LI,

which I know but never fully experience and understand it.

May we be working in the same office, since we are going to the same school

,continue to spend more time together and do well in your business interest!

and last but not least YOU! LIL BRAT!

<3 thank you for showing me what is endless love,

and whats forgiveness and happiness is all about.

You have given me a much wider view of life.

Thank you and I love you always now and forever.

Always by your side.

Went to BALI, got cheated at the airport,

had a great Italian dinner, met great people. Fell sick too!

Resolution 2012: REALISTIC GOALS

Getting my very first full time job
Exercise Regularly
Shower lots of love for my dearest Boy Boy
Do more flea markets
Spending more time with Mom :)
Start another business by the end of the year
Be a good girlfriend and girl-friend
Planning our future and balloting for house

Yours Truly,

Am just back from BKK,

had a great interview, hoping to get the job :)

much love!

missingpieces.

2011-12-18T05:04:00.004+08:00

What happened to the good o' days?

Unworthiness sets in leading to confusion and frustration

Ever notice how rejected I feel?

The hopelessness and the rejection, it hurts

Blow away the self esteem with the strong wind out there.

I don’t know what to do about it anyway

I pretend I am alright, what can I do?

I don't feel like moving forward anymore,

I feel like backing out slowly, run away

to that corner where no one else will never

see me ever again.

Relationships & Break-ups

2011-11-23T06:36:00.003+08:00

Recently two of my girlfriends broke up with their almost "the one" boyfriends.

2 years and 5 years respectively, both had different situations, different takes.

Yet both the girlfriends and the ex-boyfriends of theirs

were in your term "very nice person,lover and friend" and yet this happens.

Was it the wrong person at the wrong time? or the right person at the wrong time?

Both relationship parties has made their decisions, both affects my view on a lasting r/s

but still I hope they all make the right choices and move on with life.

What about mine? Dont worry, everything is good :)

Relationships, whether they last 2 years or a lifetime,are all opportunities to experience love on its many different levels. We learn the things we love about ourselves, the things we'd like to change, and the qualities and values we look for in a partner.Loving relationships teach us self-respect as well as respect for other, which is one of the most fulfilling things we can have in our lives.

However, all betrayal is ultimately self betrayal.

When we refuse to see certain aspects in another or in a situation,

it is the denial of that truth that betrays us. Dont start blaming the other partner when its your own fault.

Dont make yourself the victim when you are not.

You need two people who treat each other with love,

affection, respect, and support, and have a commitment to each other.

3 most important qualities of a relationship but easier said, than done.

Attraction is the "chemistry" part of love.

Closeness is the bond that develops when we share thoughts& feelings that we don't share with anyone else.

Commitment is the promise or decision to stick by the other person through the ups and downs of the relationship

To me in a relationship, I feel whats important is to give and take, share your feelings between each other and always be there to listen, support and care. These are the little things, that might not require too much of an effort but still many cant do it.

From my view, LOVE is very beautiful, to be in a relationship with someone you love makes the circle complete. I have never stop believing in love neither have I doubt it. Its not a job but yet a commitment.
So, if you cant commit, dont do it. Someone will get hurt.

~
To me, this is forever. Simple like that.

2011-11-22T16:59:00.001+08:00

Christmas.
Gifts.
Wish Upon A Tree.

Have you started to get gifts?

This year will be my first Xmas with Bf,

though we been together almost 2 years now.

Where should we go?

Did you know that I only got to know him on Xmas Day 2009, itself?

Best Xmas Present :) Ever.

2011-11-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

*Yums to the boy's lovely cooking skills.

Oh especially the home marinated garlic pork chop slices,

YOU WILL NEVER GET IT ANYWHERE! SUPER YUMS!

WE HAD THAT FOR LIKE 4 MEALS IN A ROW.

:) simple meal makes me feel loved just like that!

We went shopping at Centrepoint after visitng his mom at the hospital,

and we found out a secret *shhhh* as much as I want to tell you,

I CANT, because the person who lose out will be ME!

tsk.

Bought this Foot Mask Gel Exfoilation TO REVEAL BABY SKIN!

which came in this very cute plastic wrappers and they provide you scotch tapes

as you can see with the word "TAPE"

Its claimed to be No.1 in Japan, costing 29.90sgd

I was tempted and yet a lil heartache to spend on this.

I wanted to try this out first and see if it works bfore getting one for the boy to use it.

Its easy to use!

First: Shower, wipe your feet dry, do not apply any moisturiser.

Second: Wear this pair of wrappers and tape it well to your feet!

Third: SOAK FOR 2 HOURS

( DO NOT ATTEMPT TO WALK, ITS TOO SLIPPERY!)

You will be tempted to take it off after an hour because 2 hours is toooooo long but NO DONT DO IT!!

Fourth: You cant wait to go to the toilet and wash it off with SOAP, dry it properly, if its looking a lil red dont worry! and shoo off you go to do whatever you need to do.

NOTE: Result is to appear 2 to 7 days later depending on individuals.

I will update the photos if they start peeling to reveal baby skin!

Do not apply any cream/ moisturisers during this period,

if your skin is too dry, just a lil moisture will do.

2011-11-20T12:16:00.001+08:00

Emotions.

The emotion scars from all the hurt from the past,
seems to creep back at me since last night till now at the very least.

Its like half of me, feeling all the anger and revengeful
and the other half is in fear of feeling the same pain.
Its funny how, it doesnt bother/affect me for a few years,
but yet when it happens, everything happened the week before.

Homecooked!

2011-11-20T08:45:00.001+08:00

Bought from The Rail Mall Cold Storage!

Expensive but fresh!

We bought a striplon & tenderloin meat, marinated :) freshly at the available marinating station, so by the time we brought it home it's almost an hour of marination: ready to cook!!

Got corn bits and French garlic sausages which was awesomely yummmmy! Cooked pasta for the next day meal too!

Toasted Baby potatoes with herbs and olive oil *yums*

Julia dear's birthday

2011-11-13T08:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 23rd JUJU :)

We went to Medz, a marche-like restaurant at orchard central to nomnomnom! We spent the longest time together today till both Jojo and I are zZz!

The crushed potatoe $3 with maincourse roasted chicken.

Tasted so good we ordered another serving of crushed potatoes!

Busy nom-ing dearest gfs of mine!

much love! I love how we take time off, take leaves just to meet up and be happy together!

22nd

2011-11-01T08:19:00.002+08:00

Happy 22nd Anniversary, my boy.

2011-10-20T07:49:00.000+08:00

2011-10-08T07:24:00.000+08:00

Just what was I thinking ?

It rained huge yesterday, we went on the bike and it felt cold,
scary yet secretly shiok and fun
*eye stares from the bf, FUN?! he would ask me to be the one riding see fun not*

I want to travel more but yet tight with monetary factors* and wishhhhh-ed at times, I get to be more pampered by my parents to sponsor me to go.

BTW who says I wear black only, 2 years back I wear alot colors okay!

Dying wish (BUT bf say Im travelling too much):
and my heart went, what's this compared to last year ( batam/genting/bangkok/a week newyork)
this year was just tokyo(sch) for 2 weeks/batam/bali (work -1.5 day)/bangkok (work -2 days), then this "HAHAHA " feeling came, almost the same la, just that this year I spent a lil on MBS stay on my bday but I SWEAR ITS TOTALLY WORTH IT!!! - FREE UPGRADE LEH.

Going to London in Dec and crash twinnie's place, have ultimate fun in winter and shop together :)
Hokkaido tour in Dec, with Ziyin,Jonard,April,Samuel,Sean,Yinxia and their siblings ( only 1 of them had to pay herself ... the rest parents' sponsored, obviously their parents were going together and I WISHED even if my mom -,- had to come, yes I WANT TO GO. but 2.7k - 1 week , no aint worth it.

Germany Factory Outlet Store

btw, I have grown 15kg beyond this picture
( with ziyin, we hardly knew each other then, we have not even spoke yet,

but both our moms made us take together)
because I have not met the BEST SUPPER CHEF, yet

seriously his fried rice and random recipes, totally yummilicious.

I think its genes,really, they all have recipes of their own.TSK.

Teehee, meeting Stephie this weekend for lunch, a super uber post celebration for my b'day as well. And Pearl this thursday, we used to meet alt days or weekends or sth! This year I saw her only once and thats pretty much Most OF MY GIRLFRIENDS, ONCE?! ARE YOU ALL THAT BUSY! OR AM I TOO SICKLY ?! The most I met was twinnie cos she was only back for 2 months, and we had work to do so yeah.

<3 Bf's birthday present came early ( finally arrived after months)
: Got him the Monster Beats Turbine Copper Earphones

( marketrate about 600+, got it at a gd price hehehe or else I DIE ALSO WONT BUY,
about half the rate? Dont worry not fake, and it was sealed tight and verified with warranty)

and also his new razer keyboard.

I don't mind, since I only get him gifts once a year, which includes valentines',
anniversaries (11 mini and 1 big a year) and birthday.

Okay,now I sound stingy! $#%@!!!

2011-10-03T01:10:00.001+08:00

<3 new storybook

My new love scent

2011-09-30T03:37:00.003+08:00

Burberry's latest Body Perfume

5/5

*one of my best buys yet*

Bali trip :)

2011-09-23T23:13:00.001+08:00

Flying off tomorrow 635pm flight!
Be back on Wednesday evening!

Seeyouallrealsoon!

Here is a picture of the unicorn B got for me from japan!!

2011-09-22T01:00:00.001+08:00

Happppy Birthday Auntie Diana :)

~<3
Lunch at Shangrila the line :) met michie &sandra over there. Tsk! Talk about coincidence. She's leaving Tml already.. Time flies!

Shopped for my adidas bottles and spent a bomb at bodyshop getting serums and eye moisturizers, teatree oil and body gel all at 35% off.

Did my nails the day before! :)
Cheap and good! Totally heart my manicurist, Yingying!

Boyboy

2011-09-14T02:13:00.001+08:00

A 5yr old pomeranian, cream colour/long fur.
Mr picky eater like his male owner and super protective of me, his female owner:)

He's been diagnosed with kidney stones recently and has to be operated. Now he is resting at home, looking moody and all. He yelping in pain every time he moves.

2011-09-12T11:53:00.001+08:00

headache.
schoolwork piling.
damn projects.
having 2 pills of panadol daily. sucks.

2011-09-04T14:14:00.000+08:00

my lovely boyboy :]

how adorable!

he is sweet nice lovely yet protective ( growling at males esp.)

Birthday is coming already!

6th Sept gonna check into MBS

( thanks to MichLim) for her help of booking.

checking out on the 7th, my actual birthday.

much love.

Tsk, went out with Jojo and Juju last week on the 1st Sept.

<3 got a bracelet and a bottle of Hershey's chocolate.

watched Smurfs and had a good lunch at INDULGE

( yummy! it tastes and priced almost the same as aston's,

why long queue upstairs and downstairs empty!)

gonna do a review up for them soon.

4th Sept - Comex IT show, get presents for grandma

5th Sept- Baby,Mum and Uncle T. for birthday dinner at Shangri-la

6th Sept- Nails @ ying's house, check in to MBS

7th Sept - Birthday! YAY! 22 already! fetch Boyboy at night!

8th Sept- Lunch with Michie Twinnie @ Shangrila , Ahma house at night

9th Sept- Lunch with Stephyy in town celebrating post bday and our 0909 2nd anniversary

2011-08-15T02:52:00.001+08:00

FUCK OFF.

2011-08-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

I spoke lesser,thoughts whirling in the mind.

Feelings are prepared, in whatever to come.

May be lost at the moment,maybe its time.

Reflect on the past,and this time I let go,

I wont hope it will come back,it will occur again,

I look forward, and do what brings me around.

2011-08-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

one word, two words

something small.

meant so much to someone else.

but yet used as if it is

meaningless and harmless.

Though left with the memories of special moments.

but these "special" moments were made use of.

that special position of mine,

is no longer there,

the harm already did its pretty damage.

its no longer the same.

I am no longer special as I thought I was.

I want to sleep soundly, I am tired.

2011-07-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

the way he pampers me, no one else can do it.

never be able to express how he does it,
probably it is his sincerity and i felt it.
he never spoke how hard i was on him
how unreasonable i have been or so.
he kept it to himself, quietly still giving me chances.
embracing our love and gave silence to the situation
unless i force him to give me an answer.
with that, while time passed, he will always come over and pacify me.
but i can never do it to him, not because i dont go and pacify him.
but thats not the way to settle him, to make him happy again * wink.

thank you my special you.

2011-07-06T04:45:00.000+08:00

lil'momo is hurting again, time to time.

after the new york trip the pain gradually faded away and now its back.

worried but dont feel good about doing a check up.

not that I cant afford but, the anticipation of the result kills.

the bf better not see this, else he gonna force me.

--

these few days, music has led me back to the days of europe trip.

and Im kinda missing the days and moments I have overthere.
I may seemed occupied with a samsung cell,
but yet the feelings that the surroundings gave had never failed to arouse me.

I want to head back.
I want to be at Florence :) that hotel we stayed in.
Crossing over to the underpass supermarket with loads of chocolates selection.
Walking the opposite direction of the hotel to the lake of swans
and beautiful scenery. I was with Pearl, Jonard and Ziyin at that time with our family.
Now, I want Steph, Aloy, Pearl to be there with me :)
I want to go back to the highest mountain in Switzerland.

I rmb-ed we had an impromtu trip to Milan ,

where the girls shopped for branded goods like shiok only, and I didnt get any as usual.

This time I want to go to Nice and Venice and more places, but no trip brings much more emotions than Florence. No where else.

my first ever photo with pearl jie :) and

I weighed 15kg lighter (1.8 years difference)

2011-06-29T06:25:00.000+08:00

I guess I have reached the stage of life which I get envious and also feel sad for alot and myself especially.
Those in relationships, we all have alot of faith to begin with or too lil faith to start with, esp when you just ended one before the begin of another.

Maybe its the same for most relationship, esp when suspicions and accusations start to fall into the equation. But really, is there such thing as true loyalty and faithfulness without a lie or doubt?
At least to me, I know I am loyal and faithful and yes there is no way to sway my feelings and my actions, why? Because that is who I am. Of all the past r/s I ever had, longest being with the worst man of earth as well, nope never once cheated never once unfaithful, but yes lies are inevitable.

2011-06-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

The superfilled flea on 25th June is like over.

Im left with 2nd July, till August.

trying to upload the pics but memory card aint uploading.

Tsk cant wait to have dinner with Moma tomorrow with B!

and our lunch at Shangrila this Friday!

Ichiramen, me loves. he loves too.

2011-06-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

Then you will learn the taste of love.

Happy 18 monthsary :D

2011-06-03T02:34:00.000+08:00

we had an awesome lunch and also a good yet damn hot trip at Sentosa :)

vvv much happy girl!

2011-05-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

18 months.
Seems so great yet so " insert a word"

not very long of being together, also not very short.
the quantity of time didnt matter, quality does.
as much as our r/s is filled with love :)
I am still learning to be a better gf , a better half.
there are times when doubt arises,
there are times when I am happiest and wish time stopped then.

I'm still working towards ''Happiness''.
Happy people thrive, they're more creative, productive,
earn more money, attract more friends, stay healthier and
even outlive their grumpier peers.

It was him that gave me a possible light pathway to give love another chance.
It was him who made me the happiest and one of the luckiest girls out there.

I thank you for him.
Im thankful.

<3 aloysiusteoh today, always, forever.

if I die young, please bless him with someone who can and will care,love,accompany,appreciate him for the rest of his life.

2011-05-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams

I can be whoever I want to be,

but I hated because people made used of me,

my parents split up, my best friend betrayed me,

the kids in class called me fat ugly stupid and worthless.

I'm concerned about things I cant control.

I once hang onto painful memories because I'm afraid to forget.

I should stop taking things for granted, stop taking life for granted.

I believed what comes around goes around , hoping for a better day, for someone who does not give up on me. I'm unlike the rest of the girls, I spent my days smiling and nights crying at times, I m the kinda girl would love to be loved and looks so damn strong but feels so fucking weak. But I am also the girl who picks myself up every time I fall.

I am sorry for constantly wanting to talk to you.

Im sorry when you took so damn long to reply, that I get sad.

Im sorry if I say things that might piss you off.

Im sorry if I always spoil your climaxes of joy.

Im sorry if I am annoying.

I am sorry if you dont wanna talk to me as much as I want to.

I am sorry I think about you too much and too often.

I am sorry that I tell you about my pointless drama when you dont care at all.

Im sorry if I come off as clingy.
Im gonna stop it.

Im gonna end all this stupidity of mine.

thats life, and you gotta

2011-05-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

Was having starbucks break with a close girlfriend just yesterday,

and the mood was a killer due to the weather and whats more its MONDAY.

Speaking about monday blues, sigh

We talk about more sensitive issues, like friendships and relationships.

There are alot of content in which we spoke of, are related closely to us.

People we would usually mention, and

people we thought would never exist in our conversations.

It was interesting. And somewhat intriguing.

It’s amazing how people can change over a period of time.

The way they view things and themselves and the way they value friendships.

They have never thought that their actions will cause the effects how one would lead one’s life.

People have different wants in their life and

They dont have to accommodate anyone but themselves.

I have treasure as much as I could.

I try to make an effort most of the time.

I may seem lazy or biased towards my bf.

but still you are in my heart,

thats what matters.

Do it for yourself,

yes, whatever you do.

2011-05-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

<3

As I heard, a couple of hearts were broken these days, and it is mostly associated when the future is being spoke about. I dont dare to speak about mine, just as yet. But I am also in planning and in thoughts of it.
at times, insecurity arrives and assurance is needed.

2011-05-16T10:19:00.000+08:00

its so much clearer now.

whatever -ships they are, they will finally sink.

Is it wrong, to hide my excitement for anyone's presence?

I got this secret anticipation when my loves, said they are visiting me.

But do they know? NO. They Don't

Anyway Im already fortunate enough to have mycloseones,

whom always leave me random messages,

asking how am I , what am I doing, am I free.

though a short question, it actually let me know , they thought of me

as the day goes by.

At times, I have my reasons for many things,

but it is not up to anyone, for me to say the reasons,

anyway to be straight is

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU WANT TO KNOW THE FUCKING REASON

IF YOU ALREADY ASSUME A CONCLUSION OF YOUR OWN

AND WHATEVER ANYONE SAYS WILL BE JUST EXCUSES.

AND ANOTHER THING IS FUCKING MIND YOUR MANNERS.

-- ANYWAY--

Jiejie just texted me from Indo, she received the shipment I sent to her.

:D She got my cards, the photos, and other small items I give her.

Glad, that she likes it and My god daughter receive alot of presents!

2011-05-16T00:33:00.000+08:00

当他叫你一聲老婆

叫你一聲老婆，意味著你就是他的唯一…你是他最疼愛、最在乎、最關心，最想走到一起的那個人…

叫你一聲老婆，就不要去想自己是不是該矜持點，愛他就要告訴他，當他說愛你的時候，你也應該告訴他，你也很愛他…

叫你一聲老婆，就要信任他，有什麼想法就要告訴他，不管他支不支持，任何一個男孩都希望他的女孩依靠他…

叫你一聲老婆，就是他在外面遇到什麼好玩的、好看的、好吃的，他都會在心裡想，要是現在你也在他身邊，那該多好啊！

叫你一聲老婆，就是當他不能陪在你身邊的時候，你應該努力讓自己過得開心，照顧好自己，男孩也希望可以每天24 小時都見到你的笑臉，但是男孩有更多的責任，為了事業，為了你們的將來，他一直在努力…

叫你一聲老婆，就要相信兩個人的心是在一起的，空間的距離不會把兩顆相愛的心變得遙遠…

2011-05-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

From my iPad to u :) je'taime

2011-05-07T06:29:00.001+08:00

time to be serious about my life.
like serious, serious.

Am 21 years old, going on to 22 this year.
like what B say, we dont have alot of slack times, like we have now.
especially when he is 24 this year.

M heading back to my studies soon enough,
plans on expanding events will also be in mind.
Might look for a full time job as well to gain more contacts/ exp.

had a sort of bad week , because I had this excruciating pain at my waist suddenly, while cooking and couldnt walk, depended on love to bring me back to the room and lie down. Numbness in both my hands and legs and half down pain, walking became a burden. Am glad, how two days later, I could walk and manage to roll here and there over the bed to do a lil of this and that, toilet but a bobian have to bear the pain and go. And I could see who cared and all, thankful for them! those who gave excuses like busy, exams blahblahblah, please, I been thru' giving excuses like that too.

Looking back, I might or already have lost/ neglect a few close friends of mine,
but like what love told me, if they dont understand, they are not worth the stay.
I tried for those I really thought would be lifetime gfs like promised.. this is one friendship that I have no reasons why it ended up like this.

Upon losing, I also gain new and maintain old friendships whom I never thought would be close with. Friends like Nancy and Hai Ping, have let me know that the years apart, not contacting did not distance the friendship we ever had. Nancy is a girl from Vietnam whom I met in Internship and so was Hai Ping, they are people who did not judge me, who are people after 2 years, still hug and hold hands and shop and laugh and talk about everything.
Jonard and Samuel may be my staffs, but also my brothers that I can depend on and trust them whenever I needed them. :) hugs*
These are real friends who never expect anything from you, and yet love you for who you are and these people I will treasure.

She had her exams, it ended yesterday on 5/5. I knew, but I dont know why I didnt wish her good luck for her papers as much as I wanted to , and be happy and meet her up with her exams ended. Maybe things have changed I dont know , but I hope it is for the better. I want her to know that I m always here for her, and hope she is happy with whatever she is doing now. I love her and she will always be my no. 1 gf, thats 4ever remember? We used to hang out every wed thurs fri sat or almost everyday, till my mom thought we were lesbians.. I just want to say how thankful I am for her and I know I have not been the best gf or best friend ever, but I care and love you always.

2011-05-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

Singaporeans favorite hobby is seriously COMPLAINING. Give in already still COMPLAIN.

Can I ask..

Are you really that UNHAPPY about your life in SINGAPORE?

If YOU ARE COMPLAINING YOU GOT NOT ENOUGH MONEY AND BLAHBLAHBLAH ABOUT THE MONEY YOU HAVE OR HAD, have you thought who were the ones who help build ties and strengthen our currency: S$ to be stronger, so travelling will be slightly affordable and cheaper for you? If you have no money, why do I see thousands of families booking to travel overseas everytime at NATAS fair or spurlge their money to buy IT products from the IT SHOWS , when they already have what they need, but just want the latest version? SAVE LA! then got money buy house already.

Don't you ever feel proud being a Singaporean?

Don't you think that you SINGAPOREANS are already so much luckier than many other ppl?

Why always pay/argue/queue/ fight for NDP tickets to cheer and roar about the nation growing up, celebrating the nation birthday?

Why take things for granted now, that you are living in a much more comfortable state then people from the 1960s' and who were the main people planning and executing plans to bring out the future of then Singapura?

For example, when I left for New York in Dec and just 21 days away from home, I miss my own nation already, when I went for a holiday to Bangkok stuck in traffics, having dirty streets, seeing all the beggars pitifully begging there and having riots and all, DO YOU KNOW HOW BLESS I FEEL to be a SINGAPOREAN and how lucky I am to be STAYING HERE?

So here goes the complain about GST being 7% is high and the " WHERE IS THE MONEY, WHERE DID THE MONEY GO" reserves . Do you really want the country to be bankrupt then panic for the reserves, we been having? and Pay absurd GST in the future just to prevent your nation from bankruptcy.

I am not saying all good about PAP, yes there are flaws, no government are perfect. I know a group of friends who are very indeed supportive about the opposition and mentioned that track records are to be built and to be given chance etc. Look at Singapore at its prime time now, any mistakes or error in these five years to come will be a serious affecting issue.

Speaking our housing price to be lower, I will be glad if the low price for housing we are getting are those fresh built and not bought from others. Because, with that it meant that the housing our parents bought at 300 over thousands to reduce to how much lower, then make a loss ?

This whole entire election thingy especially with the opposition seems so brainwashing like a MLM, like I know what you are upset with, I know this and I know that, join us! support us! we will help you solve your problem. PLEASE you sure?

Worst: Chase the foreigners away, we do not need them. Mentioned by one of the oppositions.

YOU SURE YOU DONT NEED FOREIGNERS?

Without foreign injections, where MBS LV PRADA CHANEL all come from? Have they created job opportunities for you as well? Just that their boss might be a foreigner but they are also hiring people like YOU. You think our country still can be the one of the top tourist attraction, without these foreigners investment in us too?

there is alot of jobs that alot of you pampered Singaporeans are unwilling to work as okay.
Every job also so choosy, sales girl how many wants to do? telemarketing? clean toilet? construction working?

Yes some foreigners do earn more than us, some does lesser job than us but in one way or another you will need them, or else so stupid go and hire them for what. Are you saying your HR dpt of your company,hire blindly and splurging the money to pay for them?

As long as the jobs dont pay you well, singaporeans sooner or later will QUIT unless one is old and cant find any other jobs, or to help your current financial state.
As long as your jobs dont label you as associate, executive, officers or personnel , you wont want the job or rather even glance at the job scope.

I am not to say that I am supportive or who and whats not. Its just before criticising our current PAP leaders and government, I feel that one should not take things for granted and look back at how much we have grown and also how much they have done for us. Nobody is superhuman, no govt is perfect but aint you glad that you are in one that still cares and loves you and led by the man who brought our nation to independence? I have nothing against oppositions stepping in with their new policies, but for the 24 year old lady, I hope she can show some respect , and some gratitude.

2011-05-03T00:20:00.001+08:00

more money
i need.

everything else , I've got.

2011-04-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

i love to stay in the dark, dont you feel the same?

recently level of noise has been a agony to me.

including lights.

when its dark, I can tear I can smile

and no one sees me, I can forget the stress and let go m y worries.

This post prolly spells everything for me.

AH FOR NOW, I JUST WANNA SLEEP, the thunderstorm

in the afternoon, kept me half awake and half fucked scared.

luckily I have my him, to pull me close and hold me tight,

telling me everything's alright. thankyou.

2011-04-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

drinking a glass of mineral water
listening to some slow music

In life we all have an unspeakable secret,
an irreversible regret,
and an unreachable dream.
I just want to keep travelling.
but yet I cant slack my life off anymore.
though I loved too, cos I just love spending time with him!
I need to do something about it.
I NEED TO GET MY BUTT OUT and LIVE.

I wish I got a job to travel with my love anywhere and
everywhere and just report about the world.
I was just thinking what were the things on my mind, actually.
I got everything , well almost for me to live love and laugh.
I started to make a list for myself and my future.
and I hope that my wish that came true will remain there
bringing me happiness and loads of love because he is gonna be
a huge part of my future.

I should stop thinking of negative shit
and being depressed, hurting myself and cry.
Fuck laying in bed for hours, time to be happy
and live my life out there.

and to you: The day you found me, I became the happiest girl in the universe.

2011-04-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

he 's been really patient with me , i mean us.

The most amazing man one can have, that Im almost not to deserve at all.

He give me the upmost happiness and the worstdownfall ever.

He knows I cant live without him, he knows. WHICH IS A BAD THING, well you get me.

<3 he was damn handsome that night.

forever goodlooking in my eyes.

Aloy Mama looking so pretty that night!

im like eff-ing sleepy now.

i just got up from a 2 hours sleep for the whole of yesterday!

watched 3rd season Narnia with him till 645am.

(loves it when he sayang me while I watched)

2011-03-31T05:20:00.000+08:00

Im in love with a man, whom I am grateful for.

No matter what happens, I will always be here with and loving you.

through everything, and I mean it.

2011-03-28T13:23:00.000+08:00

There is this agony when
2 people you love most.

one bringing you down

one making you happy like anything because
you were brought down by the above

and both loves you much.

you want to make the one who brings you down happy too

and you dont want to let the one makes you happy down.

struggle much,

at the end of this whole thing,

both wants you to be happy because they said they love you.

one is forever yet always making you feel all the hurt in the world,

one says together forever and will never leave,
bringing smiles every single moment in your life.

who would you choose?

Both. I love both.

I feel like running away from the one who always bring me down

and live together forever with the one who brings me smiles.

I guess I rather be showered with care and all to know that I am loved

than being hurt by all your remarks because it makes things worst.

p.s: it used to be an issue about money, always for YEARS. using it to threaten, bring fear and all now you know its of no use because I am to earn my own, you offer me money to be back in your-once-very-busy-life. Its not that Im not willing to be in your life, besides my life was given by you, its just that I dont feel the way you want me to, no matter how hard you want me to now. And TRUST ME, I TRIED.

2011-03-25T03:31:00.000+08:00

I am exhausted, I hadn't had any decent sleep these days.
Just the other day, I had deliberately went to bed early
hoping to heal the hostile relationship with Z monster,
much to my dismay, I spent the entire night dozing
and then snapping into wakefulness which,
was more tiring.

It gets me stronger everytime I wanna laidback and tear.

I'm cognizant of the difficulty.
and my ability to be in that position.
I admit it would be exceedingly awesome to be awfully rich,
but I didn't care about the money,
not in the same way as the suits did.

I wanted enough to live on, and to support occassional lavishing.
Sadly, life isn't that understandable and easy.

income taxes

phone bills - 3 lines.

credit card bills.

steady mixue steady.

used to this kinda feeling cos been paying my own bill since I got my first phone.

Taking a breather from work and life is essential.

I took 2 years of it, like wtf but yes I did.
It makes you think and reflect.
I did that, and like in the past,
I'm still working towards ''Happiness''.
Happy people thrive, they're more creative, productive.
earn more money, attract more friends, stay healthier and
even outlive their grumpier peers.

Of love and me, keeps me happy and get me going.

2011-03-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

He is, so am I.

Would very much appreciate :)

It all remains there

In digression

I DO.

neverwanttoloseyouatall.

togetherforever:)

2011-03-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

I'm in a constant state of madness. I just need to know that two people can live together and be happy together forever. I remember what you wore on the first day,you came into my life. Where we met, what we did, eat and how the most beautiful day ended.
You dont wish to listen whats on my mind, you thought it would be the same old story just like the those few times. I want to make you laugh like how I used to, and be happy with you, I miss late night calls speaking for hours, I miss you webcaming me, and I miss the "no lies or hiding anything between us", when your full attention is on me.
Stop complaining you'd say, alright, this will be the last time, I promise. I will never mention it again.

There are things about me that I can't and now will never explain to anyone.
I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after.
I can't tell because they’ll presume.
I will just forget about all this, and move on.
Why hang on to the past when it wont happen again.I got enough of sleepless nights, when I wake up in the middle of the night watching your innocence and knowing the love we once had and always have.

You are the man of my dreams, the one I been waiting for, your heart so beautiful words barely do any justice, the guy I want in my arms more than anything, the guy I want to fall asleep beside every night, stay up all night ( like how we used to at the park or even outside macdonalds) and talk about everything and anything. Your hands are the ones I wanna hold, whose kisses I constantly crave, the man I want to slow dance with, the lover I want to kiss goodnight, the asshole who laughs and tickles (plus pinching) me all time, the only girl that you sing to sleep every night and the man I will miss every single day no matter how far or how near. The man, you , Aloysius Teoh I am always going to love all my life.

I love him, plainly and simply. He's everything I think about when I go to sleep and he's everything I think about when I awake the next monring. When Im dreaming a bad dream, waking up scared, he would be there holding me, telling me:" Its okay, Im here and I will protect you," He makes me complete, my shinging light in my otherwise darkened world.

2011-03-03T15:28:00.000+08:00

Life been just like this :)

lovely!

Baby's homecooked laksa with Beethyebuck :)

Valentine's gift for baby :)

Powerhouse with Demi :)

Strawberries never fail to make me feel better.

7" Pooh and Piglet accompany me everywhere:)

Bugis Duck Porridge with Large intestine :)

10pm Baby ride out just to satisfy crave!

Random Camwhores while I am freee :)

Valentine's 2011 Present :) presenting 2 out of 3 presents!

Pooh, Roo and Piglet, rocking musical chair.

He plays it everynight before I sleep.

The 3 D Pieces he got for me , knowing that I like alot! :)

OHAYO! My Japanese Pooh-San from Osaka Disney Store.

2011-02-16T12:27:00.000+08:00

Simple Valentine's day, this year.

Spending moments of my life with Aloysius has always been special
<3ly and romantic. There is no one day, when smiles will disappear.
With us, there are more hugs and kisses amounting to countless ones.

Our fairytale may not be perfect to many but well..

May I ask does yours make your heart break till eyes brimmed with tears?

Makes you tickle&laugh till u are tearing, someone falls down or end up making out?
Because mine does.

A relationship does not only contain happiness.

The right feeling about love, do you know?

It's about how love hurts.
It's about how love is capable of taking
every single joy you used to know out of your life.
It's about how love breaks you.
All the things that made a love so special.
All those special places, special memories.

My love has decided to elongate the days for valentines.

Probably an excuse for him to dragggg his time alil more.

First thing up at 4am we went over to The Rail Mall to settle

our hungry tummies and lovely craves :)

Lunch was at B.T.M

wanted to eat the curry beef rice! but it was still close!

so he bought my favourite small entries to just occupy my tummy.

On Vday itself, we woke up kinda late,

so we decided to have the zichar that I like from Farjar
and he knows I love yam ring but never buy them because they are ex!

but still he order it for me :) loveyousweetie!

We headed over to cineleisure to get our tickets for Justgowithit at 225am,

:) a show, we both laughed for almost every moment and the time

when I cuddle up with him, and he will sayang me :)

Also went over to MarinaSquare to prizestage to play! yes again!

yes I AM HAPPY that I wasted money to make us HAPPY!

so today I woke up , with B saying he is going down to the supermarket

and get ingredients to coooook :) surprise Vday Valentine Dinner :)
excited max.

rmb that I put a craving comment on this slab of Japanese Salmon with

Teriyaki Sauce and Vegetables over at a Jap restaurant in NYC.. it was so good

we went back twice in a week!

watching my doors tightly making sure I dont peek,

he made my heart totally melt when I saw the dishes.

My favourite grilled salmon with carrots and shitake mushrooms

*HAPPY GIRL DANCES AROUND*

and he was asking me to guess what was desserts.

was guessing strawberry cheesecake
(cos its my favourite flavour for pies/tarts or icecream)

and he went busy in the kitchen after clearing my plate.

B&J strawberry cheesecake and
bitesizes of fresh korean strawberries cut by Baby :)

*ULTIMATE FULL, couldnt move an inch for a good 1/2 hour*

Gonna pack the room now, till he wakes up

am getting my present today and a date tonight :)

see you when I see you

Im always just a phone call away

<3 muacks

loveyouall.

2011-02-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

Remember I placed a status on facebook months ago, for xmas wish.

Steph wanted to do it for me, but she couldnt find winnie the pooh paper stars,

well the thought that counts :) bestie, hugs.

Anyway on reunion of CNY, Joanna gave me a sweet lil present ( above)

Pink ( fav colour -beams), my favourite star shaped bottle and the best of all

*GRINS* winnie the pooh star papers :) folded all by her own.

It doesnt matter who gave me what, who did what

At the end of the day, I know who are those that are willing to make an effort to make me really happy.

Stephie bought me my favourite winnie the pooh not in soft toy form but in pasta form this CNY.

How Sweet is my girl! :) love her max.

Thank you gfs

2011-02-12T08:09:00.000+08:00

Valentines' Day is round the corner :)

well for me almost every single day is Valentines' day because he is all loving 24/7.

Not to be mushy but yes.

Anyway to all my single girlfriends, and friends :) vday is about love care giving and understanding, so its meant for every single person :)

show your love, for your parents and siblings or even best friends if you can,

because you are not alone and you are NEVER alone.

Dad brought B and me to grandma house for ren re on wednesday.

( everyones's birthday)

We had good dishes esp my ah ma ngoh hiang and
<3 shark's fin with loads of crabmeat!

*yummy*

hope grandpa and grandma can recover soon!

flea is coming uppp!

hope to have good business though, cny abt to end.

love my boys , so hardworking!

shifu is finally back in SINGAPORE,

time for him to repair my body and

hopefully my arm as well.*right arm please heal soon, I cant work fast enough
or at all with the nonstop pain*

Bb got me a winnie the pooh watch:D

HAPPY:)

not those kinda childish ones ya, its leather!

alright

i need to save money to travel again!

Loveyou.

2011-02-09T06:28:00.000+08:00

I simply love our fun shares of laughter, pinching and hugs&kisses.

Its happening even more these days and we laugh till we were so dead beat!

Sometimes, you end up falling asleep even faster than anything else to happen next.

:) Every couple have their sweetest moments and tough times.

On most nights ( almost every single one), we will wait up for each other to rest for the day together and usually before that we will have our bath.

Baby doesn't care if his arm would ache, or his shoulders will be numb, he always scoop me into his arms, lying on his shoulders, and using the another hand to pat me to sleep :)

At times, when I cant seem to fall asleep, or got scared by the blackness in the room, he will either on the music on his phone the entire night through or on the TV at a low volume to have some lighting.

How sweet, yes but thats not the sweetest. He also hums lullaby at times, while patting always leaving me smiles before I fall deep sleep. Usually I would wake up earlier than him alot, few hours before. Recently, at the same time or him first, I would be in blurness waking up to his endless kisses and hugs and whenever I wake up with a bad dream or frown...tell me everything is alright, laogong is here. I will then snuggle up to him and tell him that I love him, he always replies my "ilu" bfore getting up and when he is in a v.gd mood he will say "you nap awhile more I go get food for you" ( quite rare now!)
He will always be my sweetest laogong, just dont make him too ANGRY!

*pondering the night at Disneysea, under the mistletoe, after he bought the ring, he asked shyly very softly if I would be engage and marry him, I heard but I said, speak louder I cant hear your sincerity and he smile so cutely ( damn cute okay! love his smiles, always make me melt) and asked again, then placed the pretty ring on my ring finger*

HAHA he asked if he needed to kneel down to show sincerity, then I was like siao ah winter leh. So there you go,
I AM OFFICIALLY ENGAGED TO ALOYSIUS TEOH CHIA YONG :)

His brother, Chris's wedding is this April and the whole family is into the wedding mood, of course except Baby. Baby talked about our future wedding and life together, and also discuss renovating his room with me to upgrade to a bigger bed :D have more space and all. Yes, my baby is the best of anyone else. He even clicks with my parents that they are asking him out even more and :) spending time with Aloymama also been funny and good!

Love is beautiful. Love can turn your world into one sweet dream.

No logic can define, no reasons why it just felt so right.

He meant the world to me, more than anyone else could be.

My heart is his, and his to stay, he taught me whats true love and whats true happiness.

Yes, but we can also have a fight ANYTIME, because we know the way to hit each others' raw nerve.But I wish I dont have to unless he irritates the shit outta of me and I cant take it.

Just a few days ago, we bickered cos I was in the living room, chatting with his mom+ playing the three hamsters and waiting for him outside in the hall, but he was waiting for me in the room to get ready for dinner. 1.5 hours past, both of us are hungered and upset that we each took too long and walked halfway down , we bickered a lil. We went back up WITHOUT EATING YET, and he does his stuff, I watch my TV. I wanted so much to ask him to come over and hug me so we can have our dinner sweet and nice because I know of his gastric. But both of us are stubborn, one has to give in one way. He did, he took the dvds down to change to drama series that I would like to watch, bought Tomyam Banmian and his Nasi .B up while he was there, I clear the dining table that we will use to eat and just kept quiet, till he ask me to eat together. ( childish yes, but can you see where the hidden love that was once overwhelmed with anger is coming? it meant alot more than being petty and childish)

2011-02-03T02:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY RABBIT NEW YEAR! HUAT AH!

I got my own dearest rabbit, my baby love!

<3 may this year be a damn good year for us :)

earn more money and travel too!

loveyouveryverymuch

On 1st feb which is also my anniversary,

we gathered together with boyfriends,

to dine at our own private room in DING TAI FUNG :)

super yummy and good ambience, just a tad noisy!

after the meal, sitting and chatting!

lets all huat this year!

2011-02-01T13:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 13th Monthsary

MR.TEOHCHIAYONG.

XOXO TTM :)

laogong is my <3

<3 make my heart flutter

<3 curb my hunger with his super talented cooking skills

<3 seldom says no to things I really like and love

<3 makes an effort to rmb whats my favourite and precious to me

<3 make me smile like an idiot

<3 stupid actions to drive me nuts

<3 sweetest actions of me makes me awww in the heart!

<3 putting on my blanket and patting me to sleep every night
(he makes sure Im asleep before going to sleep, how sweet yes I know)

thats you <3

the accomodating and forgiving one.

never fail to bring my smiles up

never fail to make me feel all your love

<3 you for being you.

<3 you for accepting me being me.

<3 us for being the awesome us

the night you got me engaged to you under a beautiful mistletoe

loveyouverymuch.

yours, laopo

2011-01-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

Year 2011, the first entire month is a BLAST! with my love of course.

Chinese New Year is just right around the corner.

Back from NYC and Japan , it all seems like a dream.

The trip marks the end of 2010 and begins a splendid 2011 for me, for us.

Plans are in mind of mine, for this year. I just have to slowly note it down

take a step at a time and make everything wonderful.

Baby promised that we will head back to Japan end of this year.

We got a batam trip to settle :) this end Feb 2011.

March will be parents birthday.

Im gonna be 22 this year, but HEY FOREVER21 right?

at any age, Im still his babygirl, mama baby and daddy lil expensive girl.

26th November, Love left for his studies over at US.

It was tough at the beginning but it all got better esp. when I have

gfs and family to be here with me. It felt a whole world different when I met him.

Looking back on 2010

1st January 2010, I began a new relationship with a wonderful man, Aloysius Teoh C.Y
I never felt love as it is before and always being filled with tender loving care.
Whattheflea! began her flea markets starting after CNY'10, on a monthly basis.
I had alot of first time experiences about life, and bf has always been there for me
He never fails to encourage me and always there to hold and guide me emotionally and physically, whatever it is, he seldom says no to me and always accommodating me.
HAPPY21stBDAY to me, had a private dinner with bestfriends and gfs at Shangrila, The line.
Went to Batam 2 times with Bb Love, and genting for a trip :)
Club alot lesser for the year 2010 as compared to the 2 months in 2009.
Spent my first xmas without him, btw I know him on xmas 2009
Spent it with gfs Steph and Demi, with Debbie and Yuda , a peaceful nice xmas
Xmas night with Gfs Steph and Demi, Pearl Jie and her gfs :D
Club for the last time of the year with GeokLeng and Demi over at Butter :)
Took the longest flight ever to see my babyboy :) over at NYC and to Japan :)
The most sweetest hubby on earth to take really good care of me.
I would like 2011 to be even a better one!

The night when the two of them drank alot

Xmas with Steph Bestie and Pearl Jie

The first photo taken with Pearl Jie in 2009 and the last photo taken together in 2010.

my girls, geokleng and demi foo :)

Awaiting the rabbit year, both bf and da jie ( pearl) are also rabbits!

2011-01-13T10:07:00.000+08:00

I <3 New York City Max.
I <3 the SNOW we touched, saw and play with on our last day here.
I <3 counting down to new year and 1 year anniversary to love :)
Already missing it like crazy.
I love the soup pasta I have every night.
I love the pizza slices with hot choc. every morning.
I love walking and walking nonstop with babylove:)
I love doing laundry washing with him.
I love living in Timesquare every single day.
I love the disney store, f21, quiksilver and manymany more with mega sales.
I love every single little things we do together.
I heart the brooklyn bridge walk, even though it was a very long walk, but very romantic.

2010-12-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

Situations are getting very complicated

There are so much for me to do and let people know

I am not sure what to say

everytime they asked, what are you thinking ?

why are you in daze? are you okay?

I dont want them to feel sorry for me.

I want them to know that Im trying very hard to be okay.

I dont want to keep from them but yet by doing so

Im gonna hurt them real bad one day.

PS: I miss my boy very very much <3 Merry Xmas everyone.

2010-12-26T15:28:00.000+08:00

if you thought taking pills, on a daily basis was easy.

every pill represents a statement in life.

Thank you gfs, for such a sweet and simple christmas :)

It never felt better!

The Cake I bought from Swiss Bake

Polaroid<3

2010-12-23T02:38:00.000+08:00

where are you this x'mas?

will you remember this special day?

we will build snowmen together soon.

yes i love you.

together forever

because every single bit of you.

<3 laogong. see you in a week:)

2010-12-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

How would I know if I will be the last girl, if he loves me the most ?

All that I am.I don't quite know.How to say.How I feel
Those three words are said too much. They're not enoughI need your grace.To remind me To find my ownIf I lay here.If I just lay here.Would you lie with me.And just forget the world?
All that I ever was. Is here in your perfect eyes.They're all I can see

chasing cars. snow patrol.

Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you

Just a small town boy and girl
Living in the crazy world
Trying to figure out what is and isn't true

And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets, all my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me

Controlling of emotions got haywired in between.
As we watch the world ,
I’d pray, hoping that this moment lasts.
It’s hard not to laugh out loud baby when you crack a joke.
We can speak, we can dream,
This is our time, you and me

You’ve got me smiling, got me thinking that I’ve got it all.
As we watch the world outside the window past,
I’d pray, hoping that this moment lasts.

2010-12-18T09:56:00.000+08:00

actually I am not that sweet

I am not that nice.

I am not that guailan

I am not that petty.

its just you, the only one who can bring out the maximum in me.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and

they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. * HOW TRUE!

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart,
you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Bob Marley

2010-12-17T02:22:00.000+08:00

Last September, after a shitty 3yr+ r/s

I made a wish on my 20th Birthday, to find my soulmate and succeed ahead.

December 09 was a dream come true, when I met Aloysius Teoh :)

Every X'mas, will be another year added to the day

he spoke to me on MSN for the first time.

This X'mas '10 I will b alone prolly w gfs just like last yr,

but Im attached to this awesome man.

This year 21st Birthday, I had the best wishes, company, love and everything else.
I got everything I need, I want and I would like.
I wish that on I will have a safe flight on the 30th so that I can see my love on the 31st on time :)
....

troubled mind, troubled heart.

maybe it was the anticipation that makes me jump off my bed.

thinking if i missed any call or any messages.
the anticipation is dying as well.

its not that its not normal,its just something I look forward to when I fall asleep

and sth that makes me really happy when I wake up in the morning.

audio notes makes me giggle and do self-replies

smses make me smile and happy that he thought of me

calls make me feels assured and secure.

as I type all these, tears flow, emotions overwhelmed.

I understand, I totally do, its just moment like this I wish you are realy here.

4.5 weeks is not too long, but its affecting me somewheresomehow.

I listened, I stay strong, I managed to slip by emotional moments..

but I cant do it all the time, the more I slip it off or pretend Im okay and lie to myself,

the worst I feel when all the emotions came crushing on me.

I smile to mask the pain in my heart
I laugh to conceal the tears in my eyes.

when they say to be happy or not, its a choice.
to me, happiness is you babyboy.

Im not trying to make a big mole of everything.

IM JUST EXPRESSING MY FEELINGS,

if you are not happy or whatever, FUCK OFF.

I went to places we used to go, I dont feel as happy anymore

I collected toys I like, but no interest to play them like how I used to.

when I see something I like, my friends tell me not to waste money

but you would catch regardless how much you'd spent if I wanted it so much.

I met Jojo on the streets the other day,
she was shocked to see me at Scape just by myself.
She said its really amazing you came out on your own today
I even took the bus down to Dhoby and mrt home.
She say this is very rare of me, I laughed feeling worst.

When things use to go wrong, I would look for you and everything will be okay.

Now I have to bear with it, and try to solve myself.

It feels good when I manage to handle it,

it feels like shit but I feel that I'm getting more independent.

On the first week you left, I went back your house thrice.

The following week till today, I have not been once ( 3rd week now)

Because I don know how much I am gonna miss you

when Im there and you are not there to hold me, to tease me

to tell me how much you love me every single night when I fall asleep in your arms

to tell me to be careful when I make trips to the kitchen or toilets

to wake me up to fragrant aloy's fried rice.

I dont care if they say aiya its just one month only,

go do some things keep busy and all you will be fine.

yes I will be fine, I know.

but its the fine part , that Im really pretending.

I know Im demanding at times

but its just me, and the way he accepts me

to be myself.

Yes this is me, I let my emotions get the best of me.
Every statement here fits me perfectly.

Katy Perry , you are getting into my good books.

2010-12-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

Fight for the things you love ♥

Love the things worth fighting for.

and

The memories is a way of holding on to the things

That happen between you and me ♥

Things you have, things you love and the things you never want to lose.

just the thought of me seeing you in less than 3 weeks,

gets me through each day.

ONE MILLION FEELINGS

ONE THOUSAND THOUGHTS

A HUNDRED MEMORIES

all for one person.

who seldom read this space.

2010-12-13T14:06:00.000+08:00

Aint in the best of moods.

Besides thinking of money, its more money.

They think I am enjoying life.

They think I am born with a silver spoon

They always say Im never need to do this or that.

You're wrong.

You dont have to buy branded goods for me

You dont have to shower me with many things

Just your concern and love will do

and its TRUE.

Thats me when I was much younger:)

Bookings for flea market dates are also like a battle with other competitors.

ARGH everything is via email and black white documents.

I WONDER WHY CANT everything be via online/email

including payments and their damn refunds.

They refund me in a cheque, I cheque in, take out the same amount,

go down and pass to them, and for every date, it repeats the entire circle.
AGAIN AND AGAIN.

yes to the only ones who held on to the very end.

to those facing r/s break ups during this period

just like how I did last year, let me tell you something.

KEEP THE FAITH! Dont hate love and something good is on your way.

Because on XMAS DAY itself, my current boyfriend,

msg me on msn for the very first time and he was the best present ever!

To Aloysius Teoh:

and of cos I had amazing girlfriends with me:)

THANKYOUSTEPHCHIANG,TRACYZHANG&MICHIETWINNIE.

2010-12-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

suddenly, im having a bad view of.. nvm.

2010-12-12T11:12:00.000+08:00

For you are the one

Who makes me whole

You've captured my heart

And touched my soul.

For you are the one

That stepped out of my dreams

Gave me new hope

Showed me what love means.

For you alone

Are my reason to live

For the compassion you show

And the care that you give.

You came into my life

And made me complete

Each time I see you

My heart skips a beat.

For you define beauty

In both body and mind

Your soft, gentle face

For you are the one

God sent from above

The angel I needed

For whom I do love

2010-12-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

being with my girlfriends , just my girls.

is a different thing, especially those I have.

we do not meet everyday, or week.

we meet occasionally

some only 3 times a year to be exact ( JoJo/JuJu)

Julia and Joanna are girls that I knew from french class,

we studied our tests, we supported each other in various ways.

we care for each other, we are each other listening ears.

the two of them are very very busy bees, workaholic I can say,

but they always make an effort to meet up during our birthdays :)

that explains the 3 times a year meet up:)

The friendships remain close to our hearts.

2010-12-10T09:58:00.000+08:00

Days have been challenging.
My physiological equilibrium is challenged almost everyday.
The physical, mental, and emotional strain gave me pounding headache.
Exhausting it is.

Jitterbugger, thats what Baby called me.
The older I got, the more worrying I get.
About this this this and that that that
Dearest has to always remind me to calm down
and I will be okay!

I'm in this sticky predicament, like being trapped in a quicksand,
such that the more u struggle, the faster u die.
I know that i have been getting increasingly depressed

I want to get my mind off bad thoughts, think happy.

BANGKOK TRIP with Mummy

2010-12-10T02:07:00.000+08:00

Day 1 with Mummy with a fever of 38 degree!

2010-12-08T02:21:00.000+08:00

Life 's Simple Pleasures.

Miss hiding like this , and sleep soundly with you!

miss the days you towel dry my hair for the pampered me!

:) yummy yummy, how I missed it much.

:( makes me cry once again. sigh.

Baby, sorry I was wrong about you know what.

I believe in us, and always do, cant wait to see you veryverysoon!

He never fails to make me feel that its alright to be who I am

its okay to be sick and show that Im not in a good mood

or whatsoever. He's a very good lover and he dotes on me alot.

I dont wish to get separated with him this long anymore because

the feeling apart is not nice at all.

Back from Bkk, still sick.

But its good to see my mom slightly happier than ever.

She bought alot of stuff for me ( but she nag abt it for the whole of 5d4n)

- air tickets

- hotel

- food

- some stuff

Will blog about the trip soon, cos its their KING's BIRTHDAY, we saw their magnificent celebration, and they had 3 public holidays = alot of sales esp at ROBINSONS, which I bought like 5 bras at 30% to 60% great cutting and unique ( cos singapore dont have)

Amazed by how the Thais get even more promotion, esp when mummy speak thai, alot of things half price.

BUT WELL, I got sicker as day passes by, SHUCKS.

I wish I was much better, cos mum got angry when I couldnt walk anymore

feeling damn sian and tired , due to medicine and all, one ear in, one ear out.

cos she didnt know I wasnt well.

Went with a 22 kg luggage, came back with 52kg luggages.

i miss aloysius teoh chia yong fucking much.

23 more days

although xmas present is here, but I dont feel christmasy at all.

note to self:

treasure what I have now

dont take things for granted

care for the people who loves

dont bother about others who dont

everything will be just fine in a few moments

just be patient and I will be in his arms again

cos its getting on tough,

the more I need to persevere.

2010-12-01T11:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY11thMONTHS

甜言蜜语就不说了

:D your sweetest tender loving care has

never failed to make me feel happiness

is still revolving, sweetness is still around

when you are half way around the globe.

thank you for everything you have done for me.

I heart you.

pampered pampered.

I am damn pampered.

gosh when is my laogong meeting me again.

I want to be pampered.

2010-11-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

Daddy Daddy where are you?

Sisters doing facial :)

等了老半天，爹地为何打电话给妈咪？

daddy finally send a text at 2+am, he had a safe flight!

Mummy and I miss you so much!

妈咪不哭

爹地明天会打电话了

笑一笑好吗？

BB whatsapp me in the afternoon.

But still, I miss him so much.

Leaving for 34 days without me

2010-11-25T10:49:00.000+08:00

Will update alot more, for now, need to get ready before B comes home!

We had a japanese lunch over at Central before

heading towards bugis to begin the shopping again.

:) been shopping till our pkt burst and legs hurting

which always make me hit the bed almost immediately when I reach home.

Love you my sweet love, he bought me so much stuff!

<3 our last breakfast together for the year.

hugs & kisses, you are always the sweetest, the best ever.

Now that he is about to leave to study,

although its just one month, I feel the :( -ness

because Baby have never left my side for more than 24 hrs for the past 10 coming 11months, he pats me to sleep on most nights, and

he always kisses or sings lullaby to make me feel alot calm before I enter my sleep.

I will miss his lovely tight comforting and securing hugs before I go to bed

and when I wake up, always making me laugh and feel so loved by him.

<3 Please be safe love, sleep well, eat well.

Take good care of your stuff, and your health as it is really very cold over there, till I see you on the very last day of 2010,

I will be missing you really vallydeeply and

heart is aching for your return in my arms

and your kisses on my lips. I love you very very much.

2010-11-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY23rdDEAREST:D

♥

THANK YOU

for being the best, most giving, caring, loving, forgiving, doting and understanding

boyfriend, lover, bestfriend and laogong

and I will always love you valleydeep too :)

♥

May you enjoy every single happy day together with me

and we will go through tough times together as well.

No doubt there are ups and downs,

but this is how we keep moving upwards and improving!

Thank you for taking such good care of me

making me put on so much weight.

May you stay lovely and healthy as always, and smile always!

<3 you always my dearest SLEEPINGOD, HAMTAROFLOGSINGTEOH!

thekingofmyheart!

big breakfast

♥

pancakes love.

生生世世，永不分离

Birthday Eve Lunch :D

:) He was really really very very sleeeeepy!

Ang Bao of $11.10 to Hubby ( 1/1/10)

Appetizer of Irodori :) I like the cripsy thingy!

Love the slices of Salmon Sashimi :)

Ala Carte Sushi (:

Soft Shell Crab Hand Roll *YUMMILICIOUS*

Katsu Don , tasty!

Baby is requesting for breakfast now yea now is 7:11am

:D then we go collect the bike already go shopping!

We had alot of window shopping,

B got a winniethepooh crystal ball for my xmas pressie.

He got himself a adidas cap *nice*

We gonna shop for winter jacket/gloves/clothes for BB:)

soon enough, he is leaving next week already!

We had Shokudo for lunch, after arcading!

Handsome BB :)

His Baobei

We went to COCA steamboat for dinner.

Initially was Melt the Cafe at the Oriental Mandarin Hotel

But we were not so hungry for a buffet so we settled for sth half the price!

and mind you, COCA for 2 set us to $93 already okay!

At 11pm , we caught HARRYPOTTER7 at the cathay after Prizestage

at Plaza Singapura, and he started to snooze out at 12midnight, just after his special day,

not cause the show is not nice, but rather cos he was damn tired and didnt sleep the night before.

Hope he enjoyed his birthday today!

(: Iloveyoudear

2010-11-16T07:18:00.000+08:00

o1 more day to Baby's 23rd years old.

yayness :) sweetmoments <3

He got his Agnes B Couple Necklace.

He got his STUSSY Scarf.

He got his 6 months supply of contact lens.

The rest are coming:D

soon soon.

12pm will be lunch at IOKRI Japanese Ala Carte Buffet

Mummy treating Baby Birthday Lunch:D